Monday, 21 July 2014

Shawna-Lou Who

Well it didn't last.  That is, my tolerance for the  Jones New York dress I wore yesterday.  It lasted a couple of hours but I felt too restricted, too tailored, too belted.  I changed into this outfit below.  I do fall for crisp tailored things at times but I  just can't happily wear them.  Not only did the dress attract lint and fluff and get wrinkly fast, it bagged in the bum and just did not hold a shape.  Sometimes it becomes really obvious why someone else donated the item!

I changed into this for the rest of the day.


The temperature has dropped about ten degrees and we are to have cooler days for the next week and I am happily back to layers.

....So about that massage appointment...well I am really pushing my boundaries.  I like the massage therapist, and despite the initial situation with the alkaline water and Chinese Medicine suggestions, I find him personable, professional and really good at what he does.  However, it is still a bit beyond my comfort zone to be mostly naked alone in a room with a strange man who is not my significant other.  He is absolutely professional but it is more intimacy than I am used to, having my buttocks massaged.

Yes, and my thighs.  I hear you gasp.  But you see I was all locked up and in pain and stiff and he has drastically improved this by spending an hour massaging places no man has been in awhile.  All I could think about was whether or not I had worn decent knickers, shaved my legs carefully and could he tell I had my period? Every once in awhile I remembered to breathe.

This is not a spa treatment; this is deep tissue massage with some manipulation and prescribed follow up exercises.  This is part of the self care I must pursue in order to live the best life I can with M.E.  My medical insurance covers part of it, thankfully.  I'm still in pain but I think this treatment is helping and I will improve.

In the meantime, it's Sophie's turn for medical intervention.  She has been peeing in places she is not supposed to and I suspect a bladder or urinary tract infection.  Actually I really hope it is one because if this is psychological I am in big trouble.

In order to cope with getting out on a trip to the vet and a quick stop at the grocery store if I can manage it, I've dressed in bright pink and jaunty stripes.  I love these trousers but I have to admit they aren't the most flattering from the back view, making my minimal posterior look a bit flat, an image I've decided not to put on the internet because I may be tired but I'm not stupid. 

 Oh look, the bangs are nice today but what are those bits sticking up like my name should be Cindy-Lou-Who.

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When those errands are over I shall be crawling back into bed- my bed that is in the middle of the room because of the painting project I've started and which will take me forever and a day.

Oh well.  Life goes on, doesn't it?





28 comments:

  1. Ha! Your massage sounds hilarious. Hope it does you good and was worth the embarrassment. Love those striped jeans and am totally with you on the restrictive clothing - I can't bear underwear for the same reason.
    Sending Sophie loads of get well wishes. xxx

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    1. I think the hilarity comes with some distant perspective. I can assure you there was no laughing at the time! It does help though and I guess I will get used to this. Actually, I am not sure which is better, a strange woman massaging my bum or a strange man.
      xoxo

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  2. I really like you in the stripy pants and bright pink top! You look ready for summer fun! :) Although, I too enjoy the change of temperature here. It was so refreshing to watch a play out in the park last night - it wouldn't be the same in 90 F. :)

    I think it's great that you test your looks at home. I like this idea, maybe I borrow it from you, instead of going out in new combinations to find out that they don't feel comfy.

    That photo of you with your little one is precious! How do they manage to grow so fast? That time when my daughter was born, the first couple of years, really, was filled with love. Everyone complains how hard it is to raise a little child, but I honestly don't remember it was all that hard, well, only a few moments when the tiredness accumulated, or baby was sick. But most of the time, it was pure joy. It was as bright and strong feeling as falling in love. I remember that I was wakening up and seeing her face before I opened my eyes, and falling asleep with her face on my mind. I thought that there was no face more beautiful than hers. I can see it from your face on that photo. :)

    Take care and rest xxxxxxx

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    1. Thank you. I hope you really like me no matter what I wear. ;-)
      I doubt I invented the idea of home trial runs, so please do use that strategy too! If I am going out for a whole day or even more than a couple of hours I only wear tried and true outfits. I don't like being uncomfortable or thinking about the clothes all the time.

      Yes, I think one does fall in love with one's child. I remember that feeling, and I remember knowing that I would do anything it took to protect my little one. The funny thing is I still feel that way and he is now bigger and stronger than I am. If we are out in the car together and I am driving and have to brake suddenly, I have been known to throw my right arm in front of him as though I am going to somehow protect him from impact. He finds it amusing. Now my little baby is an adult and he worries about me and fixes up my hair if it is sticking up. Being a mother has brought me great joy but there has been great pain as well. Perhaps it is the risk of that pain that people mean when they say raising a child is hard.
      xoxo

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  3. UGGGHHH!! I just sent a long comment, but I think it may have disappeared. Talk about depleted energy; I can't type at all. Long story short, I enjoyed this post and I like your outfits, a lot. XXOO

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    1. OH I hate it when that happens. Thank you for your efforts! It happens to me often enough that now if I've left more than a few sentences for someone I copy it first so I can paste it again if it fails and I lose it.
      Thanks for visiting and commenting. It's always lovely to see you1
      xoxo

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  4. Thank you for linking up to Shoe Shine, Shawna! I love your uber-comfy style. I'm also drawn to crispness (particularly in shirts), but that is so not me.

    I had my first massages ever last year for a pinched nerve in my back. I found it very uncomfortable to even have my top off - and I had a masseuse!

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    1. It has been a bit of a steep learning curve for me, dealing with the things I like but which are just not me. I have learned to admire them on others and leave it at that. I have gotten used to the top off, but stripped down to underwear only is new for me. I guess I might have to get used to it.

      Thanks for hosting Shoe Shine!
      xoxo

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  5. life is to short for uncomfortable dresses.....
    your massage therapy sound like something very good! just stop thinking about that you are a woman and the therapist is a man. you both are only humans. one needs help - you - and one is able to give this help - the therapist.
    (i admit its easier if one got raised in a equal society where the differences between men an women were not constantly highlighted.........)
    it was not all bad in socialism ;-)
    i really hope that sophie get better soon - that poor cat!

    wearing bright bold pink for difficult tasks is a great idea - that color is a power booster!

    xxxxx

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    1. Stop thinking that I am a woman and he is a man? What a concept! I know what you mean and I do try to apply that type of thinking all the time. My GP is male and he is wonderful but I don't actually have to get naked for him very often. LOL
      xoxo

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  6. Bahaha, I love your antennas, I have the same antennas and it's so annoying :D Oh no, Sophie! Let us know what the vet told you! I've been having troubles with my cats as well. The fat one almost fell from out balcony and I may or may not have had a heart attack because of this :D
    I totally understand the awkwardness if a stranger is massaging your bum. I would be freaking out. :D I think it's one of those things you have to do often until you get used to it and don't even care anymore.

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  7. I think I would have to have a female massage me!! You look amazing in hot pink!!

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    1. Yes, in the past I chose female massage therapists and I was more comfortable. I had to make an emergency massage appointment and ended up with this guy. I didn't want to offend him by rejecting him and also he is better than the females I've been to in the past so I am just making myself cope.
      xoxo

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  8. I had to laugh at you massage experience. My work colleague had a similar experience once, it was hilarious. Hope you feel a lot better now though. You look great and my fav is the first outfit. xoxo

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    1. I'm sure these massage therapists have seen and touched a million bums. LOL
      xoxo

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  9. I love to read your life stories. They are very honest and deep. I know how you feel. I also don´t like it when another man touched me. No matter whether he is a doctor or massage therapist or whatever. Since I am very sensitive, and even old-fashioned ;) I hope you can relax a little bit. This contributes ultimately to your recovery.
    I like your outfit very principles. It looks very comfortable and flatters your silhouette and youthful. The other outfit it´s beautiful because it has such great colors. I like both very much. The black shoes are gorgeous :)

    have a wonderful and stress-free day
    here it´s also not that hot anymore.. a little pause is great
    Dana :)
    http://danalovesfashionandmusic.blogspot.de/

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    1. I am instinctively honest and probably have to make an effort not to over-share! LOL Thanks for enjoying my stories and saying so!
      xoxoxo

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  10. Strange or not, at least the massage therapy seems to be working! I love those striped pants on you. They make your legs look a mile long!

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    1. Thanks! Yes, the massage helps, though it will take lots of stretching, rehab exercises and more massage to get full improvement.

      I am hoping the mile long legs will distract from the magical disappearing bum.
      xoxo

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  11. I love massages … but I totally agree there is something odd about getting pretty well naked with a stranger … letting them touch whatever they want to touch … and then paying them for the privilege!!
    Look on the bright side though … at least you didn't fart … what with all that buttock pummelling ;0)
    Oops … did I go too far :0)
    xx

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    1. I love a relaxation massage, but there isn't anything relaxing about the deep tissue type. They can be painful at times too. Your way of putting it, the stranger, the touching, the paying, made me laugh! And no you didn't go too far, because I'm sure I was thinking at the time that I am glad I no longer eat gluten because then farting would have been inevitable. LOL
      xoxoxo

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  12. Both outfits are great, but look how well the bright pink suits you - lovely!

    Hope the massage therapy continues to help. It's interesting to hear how you felt about it; I wonder if it would be different with a woman/masseuse? A while back, the husband of a friend (I know him too) was doing a massage course and wanted people to practice on. I have ongoing shoulder/neck issues, so I agreed, and really didn't give much thought to being nearly naked with him. He was thoughtful, mindful of my privacy, and helpful. I was quite shocked at how some other friends of mine giggled about it, and basically suggested he must have been sneaking a look at me naked (had my knickers on actually). It honestly hadn't occurred to me to be embarrassed, because I trusted him to be skilled and professional. Which he was. Just like the nurse who does my smear test or the radiographer who does my mammogram.
    Hope Sophie's OK. xxx

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    1. I have known for decades the bright pink was a good colour on me but I am not often drawn to it. I have a bit in my wardrobe because every once in awhile it is just the right thing.

      I do not like feeling physically vulnerable and the only time I ever lost that temporarily was during a very long and difficult labour and delivery. I had no choice at that point. I will get more used to having my lower body massaged in time, but then at 47 I am still not particularly 'used to' the smear test either.
      xoxo

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  13. I can't wear those clothes either and lately I find it hard to wear new clothes either. I find the ones I thrift much more interesting.
    It's good you take good care of yourself and take action to live the best you can. Your haircut is in its best and I like you chose bright colors.
    You are a fighter and bright colors help make wonders. Have a great time painting!

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  14. And if I have to fight, I may as well blind my opponent with hot pink! LOL
    Thanks, Angie. I mix thrift and new but my new tends to be soft, jersey fabrics because I like a broken in sort of feel.
    xoxo

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  15. I had a mini-massage by a male masseuse and I did feel a little odd about a first, then very relaxed, although my first smear was by an extremely handsome doctor when I was 19, I was so embarrassed I kept my knickers on (they came off, obs haha!) I hope you do get the benefits though, he is a professional and wants the best for you - both outfits look great on you! i adore the pink one, colour is a wonderful boost and I don't do restricted either, anything that actually fits me properly feels too tight! x x x

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    1. I am sure he has remembered the pretty young girl who kept her knickers on! Yes, I do realise the massage therapist is a professional and I appreciate that he is good at what he does and that it will help. Perhaps it will even be good for my psychologically, as I learn to feel less vulnerable and think of myself as powerful even while naked. LOL
      xoxo

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  16. This made me laugh. I too need to have my butt muscles massaged. They KILL me. I think that is part of the Fibromyalgia. Anyhow, my husband and I got a couples massage in the same room a while back, he got a woman and I got what I'd describe as a man child. The guy was young. And he was extremely uncomfortable when I told him most of my pain was in my lower back and bottom and I expected a deep tissue massage there. He was so lame! The massage was useless. It felt like he was barely touching me.

    I now go to a gal that kills me, and works it till I want to scream out basically but it does help. I have to soak in epson salts for an hour afterwards. Ah the joy of what lucky other people get to experience as a "relaxing massage".

    The best massage therapist I ever had was at the Banff Springs hotel ages ago. It was a big guy and he really knew what he was doing. Oh how I miss him!

    I hope you're feeling better. I do love the pants.

    bisous
    Suzanne

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