The weird thing is that posting a blog is easier than reading and commenting on other blogs. Why is that? I don't really know, but for me putting up a blog post is often a way of clearing my brain so I can relax. I blog for myself first, and although I am thrilled that people show up to read it and comment, it's just something I am compelled to do. I have grown a bit weary of taking outfit of the day photos, so I'm giving that a break. This weariness seems to have come along with finally giving myself permission to wear the clothes I want to wear. I'm sure I will post outfits again but the current result of wearing what I want to wear is the feeling that I just want to put the clothes and and not give them another thought. I am also really quite tired of seeing my own face. I'm considering headless shots. It's a bit easier than having my head surgically removed. Which I have considered at times. That would put an end to blogging entirely since it would put an end to all these thoughts.
It is my instinct to want to apologise for my short comings. To ask for forgiveness for not being the blog reader/writer I want to be and tend to believe I should be. Instead I am going to ask myself for forgiveness. I will ask to forgive myself for putting so much pressure on, for expecting so much and for focusing on what I have not done instead of what I have done.
My creative output has been small lately, which happens when I get exhausted but it usually leaves me feeling incomplete and unfulfilled. There are so many things I want to be doing. I set myself a simple challenge, made a new game which will likely get harder each time I try it. I called it Ten Photos in Ten Minutes. I am limited to the interior of my home and I am aiming for close up studies of ordinary things. I was not allowed to think about it too much. A challenge for me as you no doubt understand! Here are the results.
Nothing stunning here, but it satisfies my love of close up detail, it challenges me to look closely at the things that surround me daily, and since in this first attempt I obviously went to my favourite things-cat-books-plants- I will have to be more creative next time. I have much to learn about my camera still and hope to experiment more with the settings.