I am a very dual natured person, which I indicate in my profile by calling myself a bubbly introvert. There is an aspect of me that loves fun, spontaneity, rich and colourful visuals, singing and dancing and laughing and the company of people. It is there and it is real but it is not actually my dominant nature. I rely on this aspect of myself when I need to push forward. I used it heavily in my career as a teacher and employed large doses of it in the past four and a half years as I embarked on a new life as a divorced woman. This vibrant person will never completely go away but she is taking a break now. She does not work full time.
The more dominant aspect of my nature is introverted, reclusive, soft, quiet, gentle, subtle, seeks peace and calm and a muted, soft environment both visually and in tactile ways. She is asserting herself now, telling me that it's time to let her come back. It's safe to let her come back. She knows what she wants to wear, where she wants to live, who she is, where she belongs and that she is strong and can survive. She knows she can even thrive and that she is actually lovable. She does not have to be someone else to be safe. In order to prepare for her return I have been making the environment suitable for her. There has been a softening of my world and if feels right.
Outfit photos are just not working out lately. Not that I wear anything photographable very often the light is so poor I just can't get an accurate representation of colour or a nice photo. If I could show you photos the point would be that I am wearing soft colours, soft textures, things that drape and often choosing neutrals. Navy, grey and taupe are favourites.
Abstract art lately looks like these: